Shit I came this close to not getting into syf. Or maybe I'm still not in.

Whatever it is, I got called back to audition and call-backs ARE NOT good ): Yeah and anyway the teachers more or less confirmed it with me when I went in cos they said my first audition was BADDDD. Yeah and that my first audition and this one were worlds apart. I dont disagree haha. Yeah I'm just glad they gave me a second chance But yeah after that they also said I lacked drive and that I probably had more in synchro. I think that's what bothered me most; what I've been thinking about nearly the whole day.

I mean, to an extent, it's quite true. I havent really been paying attention in choir (though I promise I will now) and honestly, I do enjoy synchro more than choir, even though it's so much more tiring and tedious. Maybe I just get more satisfaction from good results in synchro, cos they're so much harder to achieve (&I GOT A GOOD FROM CUI TODAY! I NEVER GET A GOOD :D) But still, I wanna be able to make it into syf, maybe I just want to prove something to myself. But if I get in, it's gonna be hectic, rushing from choir to training everyday, my studies are indefinitely gonna suffer. That's just one price I gotta pay.

It's a choice that's hard to make